I was in a happy relationship, so harmonious, everything flowed great; we brought out new and exciting sides of each other. I was in love and so happy. He was in love too. Amazed every single day he had me by his side, as he said.
BUT two months ago we had “the kid talk”: he doesn't want children and I do, very much. He had never thought about it and when he did, he decided he couldn't see the worth of having children, he couldn't guarantee he would ever want them and didn't want to give me false hope and drag things. He doesn't want to be the reason I'm miserable in the future. So he broke things up. One day I'm in pure heaven, the next is hell.
It's been two months. I know the having-children issue is a deal breaker but I don't know how to stop loving him. I know he still loves me too. I can't accept us not being together, it's such a waste! I feel all this love inside me just piling up and hurting. I just miss him immensely and this loss is so unfair. I get vertigo feelings, so much sadness, still crying daily. I feel like I'm not getting any better.
I don't fall in love easily at all, so I fear I won't love again like this. I'm very very scared that I'm going to be stuck in this heartbreak for good, This terrifies me. Because, how can I get over him when I still love him and I don't really want to get over him? I'm 35 and he's 32, so I don't have a lot of time left to fall in love again and have kids